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Promos are nearing..
i've been reflecting alot about my studies this one whole month..
i was so convinced that i made the wrong decision of being in YJ..

i was so wrong when i say i love maths and i didn't mind eat, drink and think maths..
i was so wrong when i thought JC was purely another secondary school.

apparently,
it was never another secondary school...
cultures where pl harvest yet does not exist in other school.
one perfect example, singsparation...
i never knew i would miss singsparation so much...
i never knew i would miss CAMPS...
i never knew i would miss the principals, "GIRLS... we want to show others we are a gracious PL-lite" i said "who cares!!!" then...
I miss Mrs lee praying and me taking the chance to sleep a few more winks.
Praying was another thing...
when the dance club seniors went for SYF...
i was quite stunt that they left out praying..
they didn't pray for them!!!
they merely said, "all the best!" "we believe in you.. blahss"
where's the "Father....?" where's the "aMEN?"
what happen to them??
i just cant get use to not praying..
it was like a everyday thing in PL ever since i was primary 1...
i was attatch to PL for 11 "horrid" years.
Let me correct myself.. "horrid" to "GREAT"..

i want the freedom that i long to have...
yet i'm still stuck in this cruel evil monster who threatens to make me stay back for another year if i don't obey him... damn shit...
i don't like the feeling of retaining...
like what huey shared when we met up last sat,
she said people viewed her differently, even teachers...
they weren't sensitive to the retainee's feelings...
for eg, "the last year's notes should have (obviously refering to the retainees)

being a retainee myself,
i was far better off because i met really great friends like JERRYS whom i got to know what true friendship was about.
it felt like as though it was a blessing in disguise..
but this "RETAINEE" word never gets out of my life..
because people would want to know why they are younger than me..
as the obvious reason are "cuz i retained (thank you very much. OUCH!)
so what's the whole blog thing i'm trying to say?
i'm upset because i'm super scared and i want to do something about it just not to get retained.
i'm willing to trade all my teeth just not to get retained...=)

minzy, huey and i had a great time studying at compasspoint.
i learnt something from huey...
"good friends is when both are comfortable with the silence when they do not talk."
how many am i comfortable with?
this two has been thru with me when i quarrel with my clique...
this two were always there..
although we seldom meet,
i always feel close...
like we never parted each other..
well...
i thank god for them..

Eunice is back from her "2 months" perth trip...
SHE BLUFF ME ALL THE WAY TILL SHE WAS BACK...
can anyone believe it?!
gosh.
8 days trip. she said 2 months...
to think i wanted to e-mail her everyday and even quarrel with my mum to e-mail her...
rAHhhsss....
we went out ytd,
just me and eunice.. =))
i settled so many things..
class shirt, lit book, some taka thing blahhs.
she bought two really cool shoes those dolls shoe..
had dinner over at my place, played bridge and i went off to do my homework while she sleeps on my QUEEN SIZE BED! EUnice loves it. and i know she does =)
eunice.. ILU+
thanks for spending the whole afternoon and evening with me =))

I learn mant things from sheena whenever she is around..
the revelation thing was really cool...
i really didn't know all about it although i consider myself a christian because i communicate with god..
although i'm not a strong christian,
i still want to go to the kingdom of heaven to see him. =))
she is really a cool sister one could have..
row is so lucky!!!
ROW can be my other side (half is taken),
i need her everyday..
hahs..

its really sad to know that 6 years later,
primary school friends seem strangers..
i was thinking of my primary 6 form teacher (she migrated)
then, i saw my primary school friend in the bus..
i sat beside her(not purposely, i didn't know she was there),
and i was thinking whether to say hi or not..
by the time i wanted to ask, i had to drop off and she drop off the same stop as me..
we walked seperate ways and here i am writing this.
she was my primary 6 sitting partner..
i remembered her as a very very wild girl but it didn't bothered me much because we began to be good friends and she was a very jiang3 yi4 qi4 friend
6 years later, we see each other in the bus,
pretend that we don't know each other..
so when people say, friends walk in and out,
it's true..
she's one good example..


OKAY...
i've gotta stop..
too many reflections are bad...
it starts to upset people and shit.

I LOVE YJ...
I am going to perservere..
wish me luck.
nites world.