I was talking to Von, was telling her the 5 stories I heard today during the flight. Of real stories, of heartaches and of disappointments.
Every girl searches for their happily ever after.. What's wrong with that? Love is just probably too much of a gamble.. Too much of a risk.. The time and emotions invested may not equate..
Unfortunately, stories I hear are very bad gambles. Then again, how often do I hear happy ones?
Finally 2011 has come to an end. It had started with many hopes, wishes and expectations and ended with much disappointment and discouragement.
Someone told me, on the 30dec, "with expectations, comes disappointment." It was a wake up call, to both work, and in every aspects of life. I wanted to be up to people's expectations, and not mine. I was just never good enough.
So bottom line.. The Best things in life are the unexpected.
It was attracting at first; the pay, the overly publicised SIA girl, Hotels, the travelling, Sydney, SHINJUKU, London, visiting granny when i get lucky etc..
But, it's not my place to stay. It's not my playground. From the start, it was a twist of fate. It should end soon? Maybe row or seow would change my mind, who knows?
All i know is, its going to be another painful 1 year 5months before the lum sum inch into my pocket.
Meanwhile, i suffer the exhaust, the jetlags and the blueblacks. Physically worn out.
I realise, i'm no longer 20. I can't keep my smile nor hop like ever before.
So... i'm getting all geared up to start travelling.. i've been bounded to only short flight the last two years, mostly studying and her. but ohwell, i've returned back to LONG sectors now.... :)
First Stop was to Christchurch 10JAN... Pretty much a quiet town, nevertheless, i bought my sparkling moscato and strawberry wine. :) YUMS!~
At the Supermarket..
Look how pretty they are arranged according to their colours! :)
Second Destination - Amsterdam 18JAN... My first time to Amsterdam! :) Finally carmen (rostering system) remembered me.. Met up with Mom's friend who was staying right beside my hotel! :)
Look where i went.. :) A mamashop that sells WEED...
How can these be possibly LEGAL!? I havent tried any, but i've heard so much about it... Mom's advice before i left amsterdam was, "Don't go to Bulldogs!!" apparently, it's a claimed coffee shop but naughty stuffs are done there.
Went to the flower market..
I bought mom two bulbs, thinking that the flowers might bloom just in time for CNY... i wonder whether it really grew..
This is my aunty.. she's been staying in amsterdam with her husband for 10 years now and she misses Singapore weather and food. Hopefully she visits us in december..
Mom and I bought alot of local food like curry, laksa, mee siam, chicken rice but all in packet form... hopefully she'll get a taste of Singapore and she'll come visit us soon! :)
Third Destination - NRT/LAX... 23JAN
I Love these stations but i'm so jinxed with them... I forgot to pack my undergarment bag once and left it in NRT... i only found out about it in LAX and had a crew to pass them to me. :(
This flight wasn't that bad (Hasn't ended yet cus i'm at my last sector) so far. :) but my cargo is saying stop buying to me!!! More pictures on NRT/LAX on next!
I'm blessed with really good roster this month. :) MORE PLEASE!!! :) CARMEN!!!!
“Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and Mom was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a board game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up?” -Author Unknown
i'm damn freaking pissed off!!! just when i switch user to singtel, starhub has to say that they are coming out with iphone too!? WTH?
and they were SUPPOSEDLY suppose to be out last year DECEMBER. and they are out now DECEMBER 2009. TSK. seriously, sway... i JUST CHANGED MY PROVIDER CAN?!?!?!!?
fuck starhub...
on the lighter note, i've deleted all your mails to me. dated back november 2005. I have never felt such relieve for the longest time. Now, i feel i can delete all your msges, email and throw the things to me without any guilt. You have taken a part of me, good for you. but you'll never have me. YOU have my word. NEVER.
Random: Pret a manger in London, with my favourite pure grape and raspberry juice. William pear and butterscotch lakemead yogurt for desert. L.I.F.E :)
Its not funny when you go to work with a heavy heart, a heavy mind and empty spaces. To add on to all of the above, your collegues judges, you have to smile to your passengers, pretend you're having a damn good day and caught a flu.
you wanna be home FAST.
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I wanna be home... i wanna just be in bed, sleep and not think about anything. i'm just counting down to wednesday night.
thanks di and ley. i felt closer to home for a moment.
Had a chance to fly with a flying mother and she was sharing how it was like to say bye to her child at the airport..
another crew shared how it was like for a mom with two kids, the older brother, "yeah!! today we wont have any fierce people at home already!!" the younger sister, "YEAH!!!!!"
as they rejoice, the mom walked towards the gate for work...
it sad how people "rejoice" or wait for us to leave, so that things could be easier or better for them.
would it be easier if we didn't fly, or we didn't exist?
or the pain and sterotypes we have to bear while flying is not bad enough?
It's so nice walking through kensington garden in summer in london. the clear breeze, the children on their scooter, couples under the tree reading... such a good sight... ohwell, i'm somehow in love with this place though i havent really sightsee this place...
Today, i realise that the world only cared about themselves, about how stereotyped everyone of us could get and how unfair the world is.
I was so disappointed when i overheard a group of people talking among themselves during class...
Obviously, i was trying really hard listening to the lecture (the mike produced sound that were blurrish- i couldn't tell whether it was the lecturer or the mike) It was just like any other lecture.. until something that caught my ear. "i don't know leh, she's a stewardess lar, need to fly..."
hmms, that sounded interesting... totally neglecting my lecturer by now...
The guy was contemplating whether he should do a group project with a stewardess in his group.. and his friend said this... "you go do project at the airport lar? but ultimately it's your choice whether you want to do project with her..." (LAUGHING)
alrights, i mean, i'm not trying to say for all the stewardesses, but most of us are pursuing our degree while working so that at least we could leave the industry and stop serving coffee or stopped getting touched/glared by D.O.M. And i can say, we really try our very best to attend lessons and we do our parts in all our projects.
In fact, during our off days ( NOTE: 1/3 of the month) we do what we need to do; STUDY.
It's not easy changing flights fitting in lessons together with loads of indian turns (not really something we like to do), family dinners, friends, partying and our retail therapy and for some of them, Boyfriends...
It's not nice to just have us labelled as "THE STEWARDESS" and thus, leave us out. Some of them work OT too right?
There are also stewardesses who gets their first honours and i bet those working in little tour agencies or little office telephone operators don't have them. What i mean is, why not treat everyone the same and give them a chance?
i never realise all these until this sem. Last sem, my group mates were all very accepting and we had our work done promptly and handed in. Isn't it what it should be? What's the internet for? These days we email, have long distance call, don't we?
Well, gf was right, we shldn't blame them. They are prolly trying to keep their marks. But Isn't it all about quality? oh wells.
To end this note, We DONT live in airports. we try to stay near so that we dont have to pay too much for transportation since we cant wear our uniforms to take public transport except for taxis. Cafe would be a nice place to do projects.
before any flight, we have briefing 2hrs before departure. During briefing, we go around introducing ourselves and share stuffs that we think it's important to let everyone know... Normally, i'll just say, "nothing frm me, have a good flight." This flight was nonethless, Same. :)
This leading steward shared something really funny... He was sharing about how we should write our Cabin Defect Logs properly. We have this book to write down all the defects during the flight so that the engineers could identify the problem immediately before the plane takes off for another flight. He shared that how we could make them laugh just looking at the book, Such as : "Steamers cant Blow, Taps are licking, Sink cannot Suck."
Seriously, i thought there were minimum requirements to join SQ? what happen to the standards man? Not like i'm damn smart but, it sounds wrong already.. I can understand when sometimes after a long break, we forget how to write (we feel weird writing, our handwriting looks funny), but all these are unacceptable.
Was watching S Factor and most of the girls couldn't tell which was Sodium Bicarbonate? I thought we were suppose to remember the first 20 elements on the periodic table when we were in sec 3?
Cant imagine how time flies thru exam period, her thailand trip and eventually, the day that marks seow's adulthood.
all the Macdonald muggings, junk food, my place wrestling with boredom and exhaust have paid off (though results are not out yet).
Above all, i believe she had a awesome birthday. Anyone could have agreed with me that it felt more like a wedding then a birthday. oh wells, how fast are we ageing exactly?!?!?!?
Happy birthday again seowie. Somehow, although i'm leaving for korea straight after my zurich flight, i can tell i'm gonna miss jerrys the most.. The time spent together were so much fun we just cant get enough, not for me at least. Love you partner. :)
I was just looking for some songs i hear over MTV (it's my permanent channel outstation) I dont think it's really popular yet cus i cant find the lyrics!!! :(
London - You Need (finding the Lyrics since april already!!! TSK!)
Elliot Yamin - You say
Elliot Yamin – You say
Maybe it was wrong to say nothing as you walked away Baby I know you've been confused, telling me that it’s too late I thought you'd say goodbye for good But you’re still here with me How do we get so misunderstood?
Cause you say, you aint got time for me Actions speak louder than words You try to say you better be off by yourself Oehh but I can see the way, the way you look at me And baby I don’t believe, believe what you say You say, you say, oehh woohh woohh
You know that’s it’s cool to look Look the way you do tonight Girl you know I’m on to you Cause something just don’t add up right, no I thought you say you felt unsure Ohhh but hearts don’t lie, Cause now youre back at my frond door. oehh oe
Cause you say, you aint got time for me But actions speak louder than words You try to say you better be off by yourself Oehh but I can see the way, the way you look at me And baby I don’t believe, believe what you say You say, you say, oehh yeah yeah ohh
You thought I didn’t care, I thought you wouldn’t stay I hope we can learn from our mistakes Start over again, we don’t have to pretend that it’s over, it’s over ohh
Cause you say, you aint got time for me But actions speak louder than words You try to say you rather better be off by yourself Oehh but I can see the way, the way you look at me And baby I don’t believe, believe what you say You say, you say, oehh ohh i don't believe what you say ohh ohh
Baby I was wrong to say nothing as you walked away.
After a long tiring two sector flight (i haven done this in ages!) and minimum sleep (more later) the last thing i wanna do is to come online and blog about this.
but you know what? i'm raging. TSK (TIMES A MILLION)!!
If it is all about Sorry I Apologise, it bloody unmeaningful - apologise without even hearing my side of explaination.
what happen was, ME, being really really really exhausted, i wanted to finish feeding passengers quickly (ASAP in CAPS!). I finished my zone, and i realise the forward zone merely even started the second round of coffee and tea. so, i extended my help to cover. covered alot btw (not complaining though) After offering drinks, i went back to my zone to start collecting the trays. Meanwhile forward zone pax still eating.. I went back to the galley, stowed my cart and went around the cabin to look for more trash and trays to collect.
And the next thing i know, Crew-in-charge, signal me over, asked me how long did 50C's tray stayed in the cabin and why 46A's cup had no side plate. At the same time, my leading was called over to question. Firstly, that wasn't even my zone, Secondly, passengers were eating REALLY slowly, so meantime even if i wanna help my collegue's to stow the 50C's tray, should i be doing something more constructive then wait beside the seat till he finishes? Thirdly, I didn't even stow 46A's tray, which explains why there is no side plate cus i leave trays behind if their drinks are not finished. LASTLY, i just apologised though i did nothing wrong.
ohwells, it's been a really horrible month. i've got summoned over speeding which i don't even recall doing, i accidentally spilled orange juice on a japanese passenger on my first airbus flight and now, being blamed for something i really didn't do.
There were collegues that made my day though, amongst those who totally made it hell.
I just don't understand how a total stranger can scold another though they dont even know each other. I mean, where's the mutual respect of listening? so what if they are of a higher rank? Does it mean that we never get to voice out? I will totally respect someone who tells me that i'm wrong because i truly did something wrong, but i can never tolerate how a stranger accuse me even though i wasn't my fault at all!
oh wells, i guess i feel much better after ranting that out. oh yes, minimum sleep. Last night, i suffered from insomnia, i couldn't put down the book i'm reading "confessions of an air stewardess". it was so funny i just had to finish reading it, and i realise it was 3:15 when i put it down. Call time was 6:40. just great - 3hrs and 40min sleep with a 12 hour long work (i only came home at 7pm!) what made it worse was, i drank finish 1litre of ice lemon tea and it made me had phlegm the whole time i was sleeping. Never felt worse than that! I tried all ways to get it down, hot water, green tea, lozengers. It didn't help at all.
I prolly should count my blessings really. I'm seriously looking at all the Negative side of everything.
you never know when it would take all away from you. it's prolly the next minute. (you know i'm referring to you, FIGHTING GIRL!)
I'm just glad exams are over. I'm just counting down the days I'll be in korea. I wanna be the one served, and not the one serving!!! ARHHHHHHH
consistently looking at my handphone and jump at everytime my phone rings.
I have been watching too many movies. it's already my third this week. Shinjuku incident, Knowing and 17 again. i like 17again best i guess since it's so mykindofmovie. LOL. no brainer, comedy and love... ahhhhh... Shinjuku incident is too gruesome and cunning for me to watch. Daniel Wu was so innocently being dragged to doom. sigh.... Knowing was practically watching another version of Noah's ARK! HAHAHA
i'm not in the state of blogging actually.. i've yet to complete the answers i need to give seow tmr!!! ARHHHHh..
My heart had a huge rollercoaster ride this week!!
Before briefing, my stomach was giving me hell.. I had severe gastric. During briefing, it decided to talk to the stewardess next to me. TOTALLY GROWLED super loudly... My heart was beating so fast i could hear it beat and my stomach growl and the same time!! I fidget, shifted, but it was so freaking loud the whole set of crew could hear my stomach. extremely embarrassed PLS! Thank God the girl who sat beside me and i just laughed about it. What a way to start a 8 day flight. LOL!
My heart skipped when i saw the April issue of Torque.. It still does reminds me of him. Letting go isn't much of a easy job.
Fast forward...
my heart nearly stopped when i saw my bank account! Overspent in New York. mostly on FOOD and transport... Went to 2 factory outlet.. can anyone beat that seriously?! I better stay at home when i return!!! GOSH!
Went to Borders in Newyork to check out Postsecret new book. To my disappointment, it's not even published! anyhows, i still had two more books before i could complete my set, so went to look for it... when i opened one of the books, it had a secret someone left in between one of the page.. there were another two secrets in another book which i already have.. It was such a pleasant surprise... something i didn't expect i could experience... it's interesting how all these secrets are part of my life now :)
Lastly, i'm so missing home! MY BED, MY CAR!!! ARHHHH!!!
p.s the crew room is so freaking noisy cus 2 japanese guys are talking on top of their voice at 2am in the morning in frankfurt! TSK. I'm heading bed soon.
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